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breakaway
a short profile perhaps ?
a music player or hit counter ?
Thursday, January 14, 2010 // 3:00 AM

I'm so so so sick can , i don't know what am i talking about .
maybe will be pile of shit , i don't care that doesn't bother me anymore.
can i tell him that i want to care him , can i trust him from now on. can i say i don't wanna to be together anymore , i feel it so boring and useless . well , this is my shit of life . take it or leave it , the only two choice you can choose , so if i were you I'll leave, i won't take any single thing from you. like bloody idiot .. i don't know anything at all , why can't i be happy . why can't i smile like past , the smile that break long ago . why can't i forget , but remembered i won't forgave and forget easily , so sad to say that I'm not that kind of person who forget easily , you know what I'm still thinking why you leave me ? i have a lot of question mark in my mind & heart , i don't know , i need a pair of listening ear right now , i don't like/love you anymore . simple and easy we are not suitable at all , understand ? or not ? if you don't , so sad i can't help you . you help your own self better way die. so nobody will even care you at all , at all. I'm tired , I'm exhausted , I really feel dame super dead off . I'm so help-less. why I feel so stress ? why , I'm so soft-hearted , why can't i just control my feeling , why can't i stop going to the places that we always used to go , can i stop everything . yes , i feel like stopping everything right now , but my mind and heart just don't care what i say , like I do what I like , ending up crying like nobody problem , who cares ? right am i right , who know I'm tolerate pile of shit , who know actually i have change to bad to worst , or worst to bad , or even bad to good . who know ? i should say nobody know . nobody know me , i know myself better that anyone of you , understand ! you all don't fucking understand me , hey I'm human too , I have feeling why can't you just spare a thoughts for me , are you so cruel to say no . ya , maybe you are so cruel to say no , cause you don't really serious care about how people feel .

alright , i have to stop my nonsense post right now .
i typing out this post is to share how my feeling and thoughts , because now i feel so help-less and my mind thinking of anyhow only ! -.- like very lost and gone .

i should stop typing and typing , i think I'm tired , i gonna to sleep right now . bye - bye ! D;

tomorrow will be a better post , :D
i promise, hope my mood will get better.